A Regular Day, February 14th

Also happened on February 14th

1929 – Saint Valentine’s Day Massacre: Seven people, six of them gangster rivals of Al Capone’s gang, are murdered in Chicago.

1989 – Union Carbide(Dimple of the Universe people will understand)agrees to pay $470 million to the Indian government for damages it caused in the 1984 Bhopal disaster.

1990 – The Voyager 1 spacecraft takes the photograph of planet Earth that later become famous as Pale Blue Dot.

2005 – Seven people are killed and 151 wounded in a series of bombings by suspected al-Qaeda-linked militants that hit Makati, Davao City, and General Santos City, all in the Philippines.

2005 – YouTube is launched by a group of college students, eventually becoming the largest video sharing website in the world and a main source for viral videos. *** the only one that meals me happy.

It’s Valentines Day. Goddamn It! And if this year, you receive a valentine, say thank you and evaluate the gift you were given. Was it for show? To say sorry?  Because they are supposed to give you a gift? Are you ok with that?
I’m home, sick. (All of you professional people worried I am writing while I’m at “work”, calm yourself.) This day has also been deemed a few other things. Galentines Day and Single Awareness Day to name a few. I’m aware that I’m single every day and I love my friends more than anything everyday! But my entire life I’ve had Valentines Day shoved down my throat. Two days ago I spent nearly $50 so my kids could have something delivered to school. Yesterday, $10 so my older daughter could take a Valentine to a gift exchange on her softball team and this morning, in a fever fog, bought chocolate syrup and bowls so my youngest could have a sundae party at school! Why do we have to keep pretending that this day means something? I have set my kids up for failure. Not that I do dint appreciate the box of chocolates my father bought me every year. I ate most of them in the dark and alone. He tired, just like I try.

Why do we have to celebrate things publicly that cause others such sadness and pain? Social media makes us all aware of your real or fake feelings and relationships everyday! Did I say that out loud? And by the way, I don’t want to hear it, the disappointment train was way out of the station on that one. Ask me in the comments about Christmas before we broke up.

I have a gift or some may say a curse. It’s the gift of relationship dissernment. I will not tolerate any level of crap! Even crap that is described as love. Some may say, but it’s worth it. I say, you need to watch Grace and Frankie.

I have missteps.  I have held back. So I stopped, I went all in. And now to a certain extent, I regret that. As a lover or a hater, I have always been ultimately disappointed. But I refuse to settle! 

So, do what I did. Build a house that you want to be in. That if you are fortunate enough to take care of people or pets in. Invite friends and neighbor’s over. Be safe and secure in it. Share your life with people. 

Build a Home, Grace and Frankie

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